Come with me, we'll travel to infinity

I want to be remembered as the girl who laughs a tad bit too much, the girl who attempts to smile but alas, the girl whose world is effortlessly brightened up by a bottle of pokka green tea, the girl who is a closet bookworm, the girl who is proud of her itunes library more than her academic results, the girl who smokes and drinks superfluously, the girl who is 'one of the boys', the girl who is never afraid to dream, the girl who is deeply in love with words, the girl who laughs at her own jokes, the girl who is always dressed in black, the girl who has a black mole below her lip, the girl who overuses the word 'fuck', the girl who enjoys the underrated silence, the girl who can only sit beside and you and watch you cry during consolation sessions, the girl who enjoys mimicking psyduck from pokemon and not forgetting the ATM operator, the girl who can never look neat, the girl who has a laughable face, the girl who gives her all, the girl who picks herself up whenever she falls, the girl who tries to love, the girl who sees the silver lining in every cloud.

Forget those times she broke down and cried. Forget those times she wanted to give up and die. Forget those times she buried her head in her hands in pain. Forget those times she couldn't get out of bed. Forget those times she lost herself. Forget those times she gave it all up and threw it all away. Forget those times she hurt the ones that loved and still love her.

Remember her. Remember her, happily.

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be some that can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back.
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do.
I’ve learned that you can do some thing in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I’ve learned that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I’ve learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you can’t.
I’ve learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. That either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done regardless of the consequences.
I’ve learned that money is a lousy way to keep score.
I’ve learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.
I’ve learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.
I’ve learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.
I’ve learned that no matter good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I’ve learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I’m trying to hold back my tears right now. I can’t believe he’s actually leaving. I knew this day would come, but never really expected it to really happen. 1 month is really short. But then again, long enough to develop such feelings. When you walk out that door today, I’ll always remember how you never failed to make me smile while tears were forming in eyes. How you’d always lie down down and look at me with such puppy eyes while sticking your tongue out, hoping I’d bring you down for a walk. How you’d always sit and wait for me to finish bathing outside the door. How you’d always me angry when you couldn’t sit still while I put the leash on you. How you’d always be a lazy ass and just sit while I tried to clean you up after a walk. Tiger, thank you for being my friend. Thank you for making me smile when I had no reason to. Though you were never really mine, I’ll still consider you my 2nd dog. I hope you remember me as the one who always brought you down for walks. I hope you’ll still remember me when we meet the next time. I love you, Tiger. Be a good boy okay? :)

 Coke and nicotine.

TYVM.

 Maybe what's lost can never be regained.

 In school listening to Claude Von Stroke, filling my empty stomach with Red Bull, studying for my Italian test.
And I don't have ciggies.


Good Morning. 

 It's funny how the things I do people deemed "bad"  make me feel like a better person.

 i
am
so
tired

J&H was a blast! Thanks to THAT BAD! (Dj MFK & Dj EEW)! Awesome awesome playlist. Home club next, perhaps? 


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 Anywhere the wind blows, I'll go.

 The truth is
I don't believe in anything at all anymore.

 "... a mature girl who is strong-willed and forms her own opinions. Thus she is able to adjust to changes calmly and promptly. She shows strong determination and does not give up easily."

I need to get it her back.